Sometimes things are easier when you don't say anything at all. I am having a really hard time with all of this. I feel as though the passion that he once felt is no longer there. My neighbor tells me she heard "questionable" noises coming from my house Saturday morning.....I was at work.
What am I supposed to think? The lingering kisses that once were are no longer there, the burning touch, the softness of his hands, and tenderness of his love. I am not angry, or upset but rather saddened. Saddened that what was once such a passionate tale of two people coming together to become one is no more.
Sometimes things are easier when you embrace ignorance, when you allow things to be. But my heart breaks every night when I go to sleep. The tears flow steadily and I swore that I would never again cry myself to sleep. Is this my fault, is it just me? Do I have such a horrible self image that I project it upon my relationship? I am so scared of this wonderful thing that I have to destroy it?
I don't know but I hope that I can overcome what ever I am scared of. I hope that I can overcome my fears and accept that this person truly does love me. I am so afraid of being loved that I sometimes lose sight of whats in front of me.
